This is what I have learned..

I believe there is a reason for everything and God puts people in your life because there is something for you to learn or something for you to help somebody else with.  I believe I should learn from the things I go through; figure out that "reason" lets say.  I would like to start around 7 years ago, when I began my first REAL relationship with a guy that didn't have the best reputation.  Lucky for me (sarcasm), I don't see any rhyme or reason as im falling for somebody, I just do it!  I think in my head that I am THE ONE and he is THE ONE, and we are going to be wonderful together, which was true for the first year.  The second year, we could call that a disaster.  I turned into this person I could have never imagined, and he turned into somebody I could never imagine.  He was protective and jealous and if I didn't answer his phone calls immediately he was hunting me down threatening to take me out in the middle of nowhere and leave me there.  He verbally abused me, my friends, my parents, but I LOVED HIM SO I STAYED (HA!)  I remember screaming daily on the phone at each other but then each of us apologizing and it being ok for 5 minutes until he got upset about the next thing.  It finally got to the point where we both new life was not supposed to be like that and we should end it and after awhile we did, but it took a lot, and I was very depressed, but today, he doesn't even cross my mind so that gives me hope.  What I learned from that relationship is that I would never again be treated like that and I wouldn't be called a bitch and I wouldn't be screamed at and I wouldn't be controlled.  I learned that I needed to get stronger and that I don't deserve that NO MATTER WHAT.  I plan on NEVER being in another relationship that is no hostile.
So as you know if you have read my blog that another break up happened recently, and I knew a lesson was going to come to me.  What I learned from it is STOP THE BULLSHIT!  STOP THE FIGHTING!  STOP THE PETTINESS!  I now notice everytime two people are arguing over things that in reality don't mean ANYTHING, I get very upset and I try to explain to them "if this person was not in your life tomorrow, would it make you happy that this is the shit you wasted your time on when you could have been laughing, kissing, or making love!?!?!"  For example, my mother was waiting at a table at Chili's for me and my dad, she was in the smoking section, no big deal right, WRONG!  My dad starts going on and on about how he doesn't want to be in the smoking section and how disgusting it is and how it makes him feel and he wants to move and he actually dropped the F BOMB, which he never does in front of me.  He was honestly getting this upset about a table in the smoking section, so when the waitress came over, I asked if we could move and we did.  When we got to the new table, I started to bawl, and he wanted to know why, and my response was something to the effect of "I would give anything to sit in the smoking section with Zach, I would give anything to go back and sit ANYWHERE with him and you don't realize that until you don't get to sit with the person you love any longer!"  I tried to explain that little stuff like this is not worth fighting about.  I can't stand to see people arguing over small things because if they didn't have that person the next day, it would be miserable.  Another example, I was in the car with my mom, aunt, and cousins, and they are all complaining about the different things their husbands do such as not eating meat on their spaghetti and my only thought this whole time was "you have a husband, and I don't, be thankful"  I will try my damnest to never take people I love for granted, not waste time arguing, and to focus on having the best relationship I can.
I also learned that I can't get past a two year relationship so I am cursed haha jk, but no seriously :)